One Week

It is official, I have lived on my own (with girls in tow) for one week.

Wednesday was a very hard day. Now that i am not around Mike, i miss him. The fact that we were considered one for the last 4 years and now are two, is starting to sink in. When I was with Mike, I never had dreams about him, now they are flooding me like niagra. dreams that he is with someone else, even married. Last night I dreamed he married some older woman and I was so mad. In the dream i was yelling at him, 'why would you be with me for 4 years and not marry me, but meet someone and marry them that night!!' I was so mad.

I feel myself becoming stir crazy already, I'm a doer and always have been.