the words

i have always found songs to truely express my feelings so here they are.  This one is all about Mike...

I'm gonna do it darlin'...
I could waste time tryin' the figure it out,
But I'm jumpin' in anyhow.
I've never been this far;
Didn't know love could run so deep...
Didn't know I'd lose this much sleep. - real fine place to start sara evans

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

Started with a perfect kiss then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive - already gone kelly clarkson

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again - collide howie day

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.  - over you daughtry
I'm waitin' on the sun to set cause yesterday aint over yet
I started smoking cigarettes there's nothing else to do I guess
Dusty roads aint made for walking, spinning tires aint made for stoppin'
I'm giving up on love cause love's given up on me - kerosene miranda lambert

Mr. Know it all

i am a hard pill to swallow, i am harsh, honest, no filter and all in the end full of life and love.  i push a lot of the wrong buttons sometimes and it isnt something that i am proud of but it is part of who i am.  i dont try to pretend to be something else. i am just very honest
"I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." ~Marilyn Monroe
the first time i read this quote i felt real, like who i am is not a problem its not something wrong with me but rather something really special.  i can be the worst, i can be ugly and out of control but if you dont accept that and still love me, you miss out on the best of me.  the amazing Erica, the giving, loving, caring, compassionate woman. 
 Imperfection is beauty; madness is genius. And its better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. ~Marilyn Monroe
 marilyn is an icon, she was a plus size model and charmed the world, she was not perfect and even died of a drug overdose.  i can leave a legacy her on the planet.  i gave birth to perfect identical twins, not just normal twins identical.  i am beginning to think they may be one of the few in the world that are mirror twins.  i am great and full of greatness to give the world.  the problem is i am human and to be human is to error.  i will make mistakes, many of them.  i wont always act the way you want me to and i will do things that are not considered "white picket fence" but i will learn from these things and they make me a better woman.